I can’t even begin to describe how God have moved in my life this summer so far. I don’t know how God did it, but I have finally grown comfortable in my role and calling as a worship leader. And to think that only a month and a half ago, I was nervous about simply leading a song in our college chapel—without an instrument! Now, I lead a touring band and sing 9-11 songs in three different sets every Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday—with my guitar.
This whole new persona of confidence was one that I had in mind when I first prayed my year-long prayer: God, I desire holy boldness from you. Not pride, arrogance, or even a rockstar personality. But holy boldness that would win the hearts of those I led in worship for Christ. And how he has granted me that! Maybe it was because God knew it was such a desperate prayer. However, as faith-filled of a prayer it was, I knew that the Word says that faith lacking deeds is dead.
Applying as worship leader for Winshape Camps for Communities was a HUGE leap of faith. I struggled with it for a while. I actually sent in all my paperwork for everything late because I was so nervous about the idea of singing and playing in front of people. I’ve never played guitar in front of more than 100 people. And now I can say that two weeks ago, I did it for a little over a thousand. By the grace of God, a lot has changed. By the grace of God, a lot has been answered.
God doesn’t call the equipped. He equips the called. This summer, He has equipped me with the capabilities necessary—and some. All because I made myself available to be used by Him. I just love being a part of His kingdom’s cause!
Now that I have arrived at this place of growing boldness, my prayer life doesn’t stop here. I feel like the next step is to become more ‘in sync’ with God. I want all my desires to be God’s desires. I want everything that I do to be something He approves of because He was the one who told me to do it in the first place.
God, I want Your voice to be one that I am familiar with. God, I desire to be in constant communication with You.
This is my new prayer.